The · world · works · in · mysterious · ways

I got my Court date:

March 13 at 2:32pm

this weekend was amazing... im over everything.. im so happy! :) im so... me,

I have been through about every single mood in the past two months... ive been sad, depressed, anxious, happy, thrilled, impressed, angry, furious, pissed.. and more,

I was depressed, but all that has turned to anger... all because of you.

but i still miss you, how pothtic(sp?) is that..... i got WAY to close, and now im making up for my mistakes.

Last night was so...... fun! i had so much fun, i was laughing, and joking around, even though i was with him, i could tell from the different mood that i was in, i could tell how much he was avoiding me, and the sad expression on his face, but i stayed strong, and now i think im out of my slump, but i dont think im out of the clear yet. i still have much to do. and one little thing could bring me back down.

i've lost everything, and now... im paying for it.... incase you were wondering..... you were everything.

Damn i miss him

i just want to tell everyone, that i love them, and to have a good christmas... good bye

i've realized thats is never going to happen, i fucked up, and now your happy, and im still very depressed, so depressed that i dont care what anyone says anymore, its going to be over... soon... i cant take this.... im done..... i've spent my last time crying yet again.. and im sick of it, im never going to pull out of my depression...

Its over, i've had all i can take.

2 months... and im still depressed, this is the longest period that ive been depressed, ever...... and its all because of you. at least thats what i think... its because of you, but i really miss him, more then i thought i would. i want him back, i made a stupid mistake, and now you fixed yours, but im left once again waiting, and hoping.. well... the lights getting darker, and the hope is fading, the dark is starting to roll in like a thunderstrom... beautiful, but desiasterious..... this is my only opption...... I love you. but i miss him.

very much.

eh, MUCH happened... some very good, some very confusing, some that i just dont feel like explaining, and some very close to my heart... but i dont feel like telling..

Tonight, is a great night.... Vern asked me out... and now we are dating! its offical!.. hehe, i feel like e 12 year old school girl..lol :)